I look at my face in the mirror
and I see a stranger there.
Who is that? That everybody else seems to recognize?
It isn’t me.
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That fat, skinny, old, sick, image I see staring back is NOT ME!
I refuse to look! Anymore! I avoid the mirror.
And, I avoid any reference to my outward appearance.
Because it is NOT ME!!!
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I try to make myself look “good.”
Wow, that’s a loaded task.
“Attractive” is a loaded concept.
Loaded up by cultures, media, parents, others expectations.
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I imagine how others would see me as I fuss with my hair, my clothes, my face.
There. Now, I look my best.
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But even best isn’t enough.
Because it’s not ME!
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Even if I saw everything in that mirror
that my culture says is beautiful, good, worthy,
staring back at me, it is NOT ME!
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I look at “you” and think I see you,
but if I can’t see ME when I look into that mirror,
how on earth do I think that I can I see YOU?
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How dare I think judgments about you!
“Wow, you are fat!”
“You are so old!”
“You are unpleasant because you look_____ yadayadayada.”
Judgments of YOU that I refuse to make of myself any longer.
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“THAT IS NOT ME !” I scream with all my being as I look into that mirror.
And as I look into your face, I must say too,
If this is not me, how can I say THAT IS YOU??????
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A book for the ages, young and old: I Am My Body, Not! by Adam Abraham
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a pic is worth a thousand words of self love!
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you are loveable. https://lightenupmyworld.wordpress.com/2010/06/06/u-r-loved/
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